EYES

Words must be chosen carefully. One might be building a monument to one's own foolishness. So, with care I proceed.

My name is Eyes. I am a fictional character. This doesn't bother me much because I realize there are many of us out there. Actually, I rather enjoy my God-given ability to step behind a veil of fiction at my maker's request. (I call him 'my maker' for want of a better term, you see, for puppeteer or fictionalizer both have negative connotations [and the latter isn't even a proper word], that would perhaps suggest I am utterly and entirely moved by another party). Rather, my maker, who has posted at most of the forums here with some name or another, at times taking great delight in slightly bending the standard clues of age and gender, has given me quite a bit of freedom of choice. I suppose I am trusted to a given degree and this is why he actually lets me hold the reigns - but this is not to say that I haven't received from him the occasional stiff kick in the pants for abusing the obvious advantages of anonymity. But it's a fine relationship otherwise, for I get to say things that he'd never say, and he gets to say things that I for sure wouldn't say.

I mention with some embarrassment that I can't exactly remember where I was born, although evidence strongly suggests that it was on the Adi Da Forum. My maker isn't too eager to look through the birth records (or archives, if you prefer), but I do remember screaming loudly into Conrad's ear in one of my first breaths.

My relationship with my maker is good, though perhaps a bit tenuous, being that I am not quite of the caliber of one of the fictional characters he has populated his unpublished novels with - meaning that my personality is kind of vague and I am more like a psychic appendage than an actual character. The advantage I have, however, is that I am close to him, unfixed to plot, and free to flow in the river of life. I think that this is why he has a special love for me. Hey, but you never know - if I keep this up, maybe he will slip me into a novel - something that I've given lots of thought to, actually. I mean, a web forum is cool, but a novel, man - maybe I wouldn't be so free as I am now, but I could have a personality, even a "look", and I'd have some kind of story to tell, some amazing fate to play out upon fiction's ever-malleable stage - why, I could even be a symbolic icon to millions of unconscious minds! (No doubt the pay would be better, too.) But, you know as well as I that it's all up to Him (sometimes I capitalize the h reluctantly - I don't want my maker to get a swollen Head and start wanting to drop all fictionalizations altogether) - I'm obviously still concerned for the future - but wouldn't you too if you were a fictional entity?